Me Who?

For the majority of my life I have grappled with the issue of self-esteem. You must look a certain way, act a certain way, and talk that way too. As a kid I was constantly reminded of how wonderful I was and beautiful too. You know, the classic, inside and out thing. Yet as I look back over my life, I realize that I never achieved this highly sought after and valued self worth. We are pressured to have it all together, strive for this attitude or perspective that convinces us that we are what it is all about, and worst of all, desire to be the example that people look to for truth. If this is such a great concept than why is it that self-esteem just breeds insecurity. Insecurity, because we can't do it all and look great while doing it. Which then just serves as a constant reminder of our failures. What if we actually made God the example. The One who is nothing less than glorified in all that He does. "For this reason, I kneel before the Father from whom his whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name." Eph 3:14. "The heavens declare the glory of God; the skies proclaim the works of his hands. Day after day they pour forth speech; night after night they declare knowledge." Psalm 19: 1-2. Funny how my name isn't listed in there anywhere. Could that be because what we should actually be seeking is not self-confidence at all, but instead God-confidence?