Mmmm. . .Chocolate Silk Pie @ 11:00pm

Puddles

Well, if you have been reading Jaclyn's blog then you all know that I am losing my best work buddy in about two weeks. I can't believe how many emotions are swirling through my head right now, after all, I have been so spoiled as to have a best friend sitting next to me for four years! I could not be more excited for the new step that she is taking. What an opportunity! Of course, I am also sad and certain that come Nov. 1st I will be a very lost insurance assistant. Despite that, I cannot help but to notice how God has used this change to fill both of us with such joy and anticipation of what he will do next. When she and I first met, I was so desparate for stability, purpose and truth. Now looking at where I sit, it seems so clear that God brought her to me "to accomplish what is now being done". Now, perhaps, He doesn't need her to watch over me from five feet away. He has strengthened me enough in Him to have her 30 miles away (from 8am-5pm). It is so very exciting and encouraging to see the work that He has done within both of us and our friendship. I walked into this office as a stranger and she is leaving as my sister. I'll miss her, but as always, she can't get rid of me that easliy : )
Love you, girl

Scary Thought

Since I have been struggling to put up another post, this will be short: ) I found this to be so powerful/convicting when I was reading The Screwtape Letters last night. . . C.S. Lewis supposes that we are weakened to the devil when our focus is diverted from thinking about God to our perceptions of God. I know all too well how we can look at God through the lens of humanity, which in turn makes him a very small God, subject to the same limitations that we suffer. A small God with failings will let us down. If we make him into our image, how then can he overpower the evil that we encounter in life. God becomes weak which allows the devil to gradually chip away at our trust, peace, and joy. Without trust, we take our lives into our own hands, desparate for some kind of control since God can no longer step in on our behalf. Of course the snowball effect continues and we find ourselves lost without any sense of truth. And it all started with trying to reconcile within our minds who we think God to be (when, by the way, he has always been the same regardless of what we tell him he is). I have to tell you that this was a little to much for my brain at 11:00pm. Maybe it is time to go back and see who he says he is, not my limited version!